January 2nd 2012
Today is January 2nd 2012 and for some reason I feel depressed. I feel like I am getting no where with my life. Another wasted year by sitting in some office trying to make money for the boss, how boring can it be? It might sound like a lot of complaining from my side, but like Steve Jobs said in his speech, life is too short to be wasted on things you really don’t want to do! This year has to be the year where I am in the driving seat instead of just being a passenger! I will and I can make my goals this year! I have already made a plan and a list of my goals I want to accomplish in 2012. So it is totally up to me to make it! We all have dreams and things we want to do, but all these things will remain a dream until we make a plan and take action based on that plan. Have faith you can make it regardless of what other people might think about it! In the end of the day or year I should say, I am the one who harvest from my accomplishments. There will be challenges on the way to accomplish my goals, so be it because in the end I will accomplish my goals and be totally happy about it! Real happiness is the “Gold” covered within all the shit that comes from within our own lives! Our own negativity is our biggest enemy! Not your bad boss, or you mother in law! I, you, we are the biggest source of happiness or negativity. Which source you decide to use is totally up to you. I decided to use the source of happiness and move forward this year to show myself and others, that everything is possible! Like I heard many times before “Be the change you want to see” Just by writing this text I already feel better and I want you to feel better too. If I can then so can you and so can we all!
In the mist of all this I feel so damn homesick, yes you heard me Hoooomesick! Even a 32 year old can be homesick! I haven’t been back for 2 and half years so I have moments where I just want to pack my stuff give up and go home! But you see I can’t just let this moment(s) blind me! I need to see the bigger picture of what I am doing! I just said I want to kick ass in 2012 and that is what I am going to do! Guess what? One of my goals is to go home this year! I will be home before I know it, time is flying too fast! Time might feel very long now, but it is really not and I know it is not!
You and I and the rest of you out there all got different challenges! But 1 thing we have in common is we can build a world based on happiness, understanding and compassion! Let us make Greed, Animality and evil something of the past – Happy new year and all the best in 2012 :)
